Wanting to do and actually doing it is two very distinctive thing. So, today I begin this new blog with that in mind.
You can always dream and plan but somehow things don't always turn out the way you want it to be. Because things don't turn your way... you give up. You give up on the things you believe in, you give up on your dreams, you give up on your family and friends, you give up on life basically. And you numb your feelings so that you can stay perfectly still in a bubble of ignorance. You continue with life, but in a trance. Not feeling means not having to think or worry, so you can do whatever you feel like doing leaving the consequences behind.
But life, life catches up on you. Life comes with consequences and no matter how hard you try to ignore it.. the truth will eventually prevail.
They say ignorance is bliss. What they forgot to tell you was, ignorance also comes with this sick feeling of doom. You can ignore the truth all you want... but the Inevitable Day will come and deep down inside you know with a certainty that no matter how far you run away now, you will never outrun what is SURE TO COME.
I am starting a new journey on a path I once thread towards a destination that will be my final abode. As easy as it is to get lost as I once did, I am sure that Allah will make it easy for me to persevere if I truly work hard for it. The 'hard work' scares me and I don't know if I am capable of such perseverance yet at this moment. But what I'm sure of is that I WANT to be there. I want to be at my final abode happy that I have tried my best and that My Lord has rewarded me for it.
Bismillah. To a new beginning.
